Random Fanboydom and DOOM!

darkjedininja @ 2009-07-29T00:29:00

2009-07-29T04:43:49Z

so its been over a month since i posted and about a month since i finished my last class. kinda getting all introspective again. but really im just getting annoyed at my friends. people i thought were my friends. were my friends at one time anyway. now they are....who knows. im tired of caring. im tired of reaching and begin ignored or blown off. im tired of being told that i can pick up a phone too when im the only one trying. tired of feeling a twinge of hurt when no one tries to include others in their lives. so im done. pretty sure i said it once before but im done. now its on everyone else. it seems everyone is content to let us drift apart even though it is so easy to keep together but now its on you all. the ball is in your court. you want to keep friendships alive great. you know where i am. if not your doing a great job already. balls in your court. im done

Life after Graduation

2009-07-02T16:20:11Z

so i just realized that the post i wrote i never posted so i figure nows the time. as of last thursday i offically graduated from Kean University. yay! that being the case i now have the rest of my life ahead of me and im thinking before i just into a soul crushing career or going back to school i think im taking a little time off for me. not a year or anything just some time to decompress and live a little bit. anime next is come and gone and all in all it was a little strange this year partially because we usually go as a big group but no one really went this year. well people went but no one seemed to want to do a group so. not a big fan of the new location plus it rained so all in all not a good sign for the con. Otakon is in a few week im sure that will be much better and NY anime is in sept so im looking forward to that too. basically trying to balance relaxing and not getting really lazy. its a hard balance since my tendency has been towards just hanging out in the house so ive been trying to get outside as much as i can. heres a decent list of things that im looking to do while im on break from life:

-catch up on anime ive been meaning to watch
-catch up on movies i got forever ago and never got around to watching
-catch up on books i have sitting around
-try and reconnect with friends and family that have drifted away over the years
-go through and organize all my school notes so i can actually find the information im looking for
-send thank you notes to all the professors that i actually cared about and didnt suck
-write a resume (yea yea i know i should have done that already)
-spend a whole day at the shore not in the arcade the whole time
-do some backpacking/camping
-go to massachusetts (just because)

basically since my life has been on hold the last five years im going to try and take time for me and things i want to do. things are always better with friends so im hoping i can spend as much time as possible with people too. in any case its going to be a fun ride i hope

darkjedininja @ 2009-06-23T11:33:00

2009-06-24T03:35:17Z

played softball with work people today. got destroyed but had tons of fun. school is almost over, thursday to be exact. half a paper to write and a final and im done. its an odd feeling.

darkjedininja @ 2009-06-21T13:37:00

2009-06-22T05:39:47Z

tommorrow starts the last week of the last class of my current college career. dont know how i feel about it. strange things are happening but i guess its a change im going to adjust to eventually. the start of the rest of my life

graduation and excited

2009-05-16T16:06:44Z

im not going to make a full post about graduation but all in all it was really nice though a bit long. after it was over we went out for lunch at le peep and then i spent the rest of the with kristen playing video games and making mini adventures into town. weee. in more exciting news i just checked my grades and i got two A's a B+ and a B which puts me on the deans list for this semester and brings my total GPA up to....3.007!!! yea i kno it cuts off at two decimals but im so excited i finally managed to drag my GPa over a 3.0 after semesters of hard work trying to undo a really bad semester a few years ago. sooo happy!!! now if i do well in my summer class that should bring it up even more! :happy dance: so that pretty much just made my day. as long as work is not a complete clusterfuck im going to be having a really great day today. w00t

darkjedininja @ 2009-05-06T21:06:00

2009-05-07T01:06:21Z

and with that my last final is done. all that is left is to email an assignment froma a month ago i forgot about and to go and retake a final to see if i can get a better grade and thats it. wooo. graduation is next thursday i got my pretty cap and gown today. im gonna wear it around see what it feels like. wooo

finally

2009-05-06T16:08:10Z

so thats it kids i just finished my last pieces of my last project of the semester. after this all i have to do is take my last final tonight and im totally done. just one stupid summer class and im totally done with college for a while. its been a long trip and im very happy to be almost done.

new computer

2009-05-04T17:02:53Z

so yay i got a new computer. im very happy its so pretty and quiet and the screen is so bright and pretty...yay. in other news i about 2 hours im going to be presenting a poster session for an APA conference at school and im freaking out. the dean is going to be there i think the president of the school not to mention my professors and peers are going to be there asking me questions about my experiment so im really nervous. on the up side thats the last day of that class so at least thats done. also i have my final for far east lit and im so glad that class is over. i regret every day taking that class. im trying to write my final close reading but its just so hard to care right now. so so hard. i gotta turn something in so well see what happens. i gotta write an extra credit thing too for social psyc but its only one page so its childs play. oy i cant wait for this to be over. oki back to work gotta leave soon.

commence operation freak out

2009-04-27T19:57:44Z

well hello everyone its now the very home stretch of the semester and just when i thought everything was finally falling into place guess what happens? my sister somehow got a nice virus onto my computer which magically turned my computer into a paperweight. so the time when it is most important for me to have access to my research data i now have nothing. the only time im near a computer is at school when im supposed to be in class. oh joy of joys. so the paper i was supposed to hand in today i couldnt print out, the presentation im supposed to give wed i cant do and the research im supposed to access i cant get at. on the up side im finally getting a new computer after 10 years of trying to keep the old on one its last legs for the 5th time. so im hoping ill somehow survive the next 3 weeks so i can relax until my summer class kicks in and i have stuff to worry about again and then im done. ok well now im off to frantically try and throw things together so i dont die. oh yea i got a new phone too since my old one melted down too. so many things to go wrong at once. yay me. *dies*

the end is neigh

2009-04-08T16:52:41Z

well the end of the school year is fast approaching so i figured i would post. just to warn you i just cut my finger doing dishes so its kidna hard to type so excuse the glaring spelling mistakes. as i was saying the school year is almost over and even though i still have to take a summer class to get my last freaking 3 credits im pretty excited to be alomst done with school. i had the shole metaphysical quandry going a day or two ago just kinda freaking out about....well...everything. who am i what am i doing what is my life going to be and why am i here and all that. just couldnt stop freaking out. i felt like i was at the edge of a cliff and about to fall off but i forgot to bring a rope so i was going to plunge into the infinate nothingness of auseless life. scary stuff. i still dont have a lot of answers for most of my questions but i do know that if i keep freaking out about the rest of my life now im going to never finish school and itll all be acedemic anyway since the rest of my life will never come. which brings me to where i am now. after being pretty sick the last few days i sorta lost the last few days to lack of energy and a horrible headache that kept me from doing anything. after work yesterday i crawled into bed and stayed there the rest of the day. but now that im better its time to get a move on with life and living and whatnot.

im stoked that i finished my experimental psyc project now i just have to analyze the data and finish my write-up so i can put together a poster to present and an APA conference in a few weeks. my senior sem paper didnt fare as well unfortunately. choosing the same topic freom a previous class was a mistake because its hard to be excited about the same research twice so that paper has kinda fallen into the ether of caring. meaning i dont really care about it. it was actually due today but thats not happening. ill talk to my professor and turn it in next week minus some points. oh well ill make it up with the presentation i have to do for it. literatre i stopped caring about weeks ago now im just trying to pass it and move on. and social psyc is going well as long as i keep studying. i actually have a test today in that class. go figure. im taking a lit class over the summer to finish up so well see how that goes.

ive been very lazy and apathetic for a while concerning my own life and i think its time to stop that. now a i have some things on he horizon to keep me active. otakon is in july and we diceided that abby kristen and i are going to do a haruhi goth rocker cosplay group so thats going to take a little doing. i really have to get my ass in gear and recer my EMT or theres a decent chance ill just let it go and stop doing that all together. i really need to write a resume at some point so i can apply to a real job at some point. been hanging out with abby more lately which has been quite awesome. she seems to make most things much more fun somehow. like by getting us lost down an abandened street by the schore looking for a diner. good times. speaking of which were going to image anime in the city this weekend so that should be a blast as long as i avoid buying everything i see like i usually do. oh well time to leave for class. happy times all. rock on

so thats why you need sleep

2009-03-31T19:42:06Z

havent posted anything intellignet in a while so figure why not. spring break was amazing i misses it so much and all the free time i had. where art thou spring break. sooo lets see whats been going on....school sucks like always. as i get closer to the end of the year i feel further and further from actually being done with everything. the school fucked up and told me i was done and graduating in may when i actually had 3 more credits to take. but instead of telling me in october when i applied they told me a week ago when im supposed to be out in 5 weeks. and of course telling them that everything was approved and no one said anything doesnt count even though i was told by more than one person months ago i was good. fuck. so now i have to take one more class over the sumer before i get my degree. still makes me angry but theres nothing i can do so oh wel.
classes are going well enough. my experiment for experimental psyc is almost done just have to gaehr the last of the data this week and do the analysis so i can write the last of it up. my research paper for senior sem is due in a week that i totally forgot about. at least i have a rough draft to work from.
i woke up every half hour or so until i dragged myself out of bed at 5 am this morning to call out of work. so i basically didnt get any stable sleep untill after 5 am so i feel pretty shity. im supposed to be on call tonight since i switched night so i guess ill push through till i can come home and pass out again and hope to get some useful sleep tonight. has everyone else out there? havent seen anyone in like....ever. people still post from time to time so i guess no ones dead. oki guess i should get to doing something for school and make some kinda use of the day. cheers.

darkjedininja @ 2009-03-25T17:54:00

2009-03-25T21:55:02Z

life can be so great moment and crush your soul the next. kean university why do you hate me

spring break gs day 4

2009-03-20T05:39:01Z

gs:145

achievement unlocked:justice leaguers: spend time with john (10)
achievement unlocked:lady of mystery: spend time with BB (10)
achievement unlocked:devious plan go: spend time at the shore (20)
secret achievement unlocked: the cake is no lie: baked a cake (5)
secret achievement unlocked: the city never sleeps: finish watching CSI NY season 1 (15)

so im actually doing pretty good with my list. better than i thought i would. havent done my lit paper yet but its only like 2 pages so i think ill survive. havent played RE5 yet and its been on my table for 2 days so im pretty lazy with that too. tommorow im going to mitzuru (?) market with the anime society and maybe chinatown though i have to be back by 7 since im going to see i love you man at 8:15 if anyone wants to come. spring break hazs been a very lazy time but at the same time i think i needed it. just time to unwind and relax before the crushing pressure and parinoia that will be the rest of the semester. but after that ill be done and every day will be spring break. though that in itself is a whole seperate set of challanges and scaryness. oki time to sleep.

spring break gs day 3

2009-03-18T15:47:54Z

GS:85

achievement unlocked: i swear guys im god: go drinking (10)
achievement unlocked: stroop to their level: complete research on the stroop effect (25)
secret achievement unlocked: metal militia: spend time with lewis (10)
secret achievement unlocked: theres my mitten: organize the clothes (5)

so im actually making it pretty far through my list im pretty impreseed with myself. trying to keep busy and not play xbox all day. im actually getting stuff for school done too. i got my research on the stroop effect done (the stroop effect btw is the tendency to get confused when the work for a color is written in another color such as black being written in red. your brain wants to say black since thats the word instead of red what is the task usually) and have been doing somed serious planning for my exp psyc experiment im going to have to do soon so i think im doing pretty ok. i really dont want to go back im enjoying the whole spring break thing. oh well its gotta end eventually.

spring break GS day 1

2009-03-16T17:29:36Z

gs: 45

achievement unlocked:i dont like your girlfriend: watch the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya (20)

achievement unlocked: i watch the watchmen: see the watchmen (10)

achievement unlocked: the fabled one: complete fable II (15)

spring break!!

2009-03-13T19:50:30Z

so after hell week spring break has finally come. a week to chill and recoup and get refocued for the run to the end of the semester. have a few little things but nothing really brutal. mostly looking to hang out and see some people and so some stuff. so in my continued effort to make lists for everything i have made a list of spring break achievements to boost my gamerscore:

there are 12 achievements with a total 200 points

the bold and the blond: spend time with shannon (10)
justice leaguers: spend time with john (10)
lady of mystery: spend time with BB (10)
read between the lines: complete assignment for lit class (25)
stroop to their level: complete research on the stroop effect (25)
who was that masked man: ride my first night on tuesdays (25)
i dont like your girlfriend: watch the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya (20)
the fabled one: complete fable II (15)
evil is as evil does: play resident evil 5 (20)
devious plan go: spend time at the shore (20)
i watch the watchmen: see the watchmen (10)
i swear guys im god: go drinking (10)

anyone who wants to boost their score is free to do these achivements alone or as a group but some DLC is required.

done?!

2009-03-11T17:49:34Z

ok so im actually pretty confused right now. i had a pretty bad week of death and somehow i managed to finish all my work without dying and magically i got it all in on time. given i managed to make myself sick in te process but somehow i did it. woohoo! i think i leveled up after this week. finished a literature review for experimental psyc, a rough draft for my research paper for senior sem, debate topics and points for senior sem, and some kind of studying for social psyc. given the draft for senior sem has some stuff i know i need to fix and i need like 5 more sources before i turn in the final draft and i ended up having to drop a sources for exp psyc because it wasent as strong as i though but its done...for now anyway. this semester really is sucking and killing me. so much to do i really gotta stay on top of everything from here on or im in big trouble. i have an experiment i have to design and conduct coming up so thats going to be a lot of work. this research paper is really only like half done so i know im going to have a bunch to do on that as some point. plus i have an assignment due in my lit class after spring break. ok so maybe im not in as good of shape as i thought. oh well i made it through my week of death and survuved so im counting that as a win. though i did make myself too sick to go to my senior sem class this morning. i have to drag myself to social psyc class at 7:30 for a test so i cant just lay around today. oh well plenty of time fore that over spring break.

speaking of spring break whos around? every time i send shout outs like this i get nothing but i figure ill try. havent seen anyone in a while so if anyone is around next week and wants to do something.

devious plan is go

2009-02-22T04:38:14Z

omfg last night was amazing. road trip to sonic with kristen and abby was epic. spend ing hours and god knows how much money at the arcade in pt pleasent owns. damn you 10000pt coin!! we will be back!!

darkjedininja @ 2009-02-18T02:24:00

2009-02-18T07:25:44Z

kristens new car=awesome
fable II is owning my life right now
bioshock is very freaky. must not play in the dark. ever.
devious plan to get guitar hero world tour for free is a go
naps fuck up my sleep schedule like woa.
that is all

a mid day post

2009-02-04T17:00:30Z

so hi i have an hour or so before school so i figure ill post. just for fun yea? soooo hiiii hows everyone? this semester is going to be the death of me but im not totally sure its a bad thing. lots of work and trying to deal with not so good professors. my asian lit class is going to be a challange because my teacher really likes to hear herself talk. and talk. and talk. for 3 hours. oh yea one of those teachers. plus she assigned her own book for class reading which i totally disagree with so shes on my list. i had a tally going in class of the number of times she said "a scholar like me" and another for the number of times she used really big words for no reason other than to make herself look smart. started to run out of margin room so that shows how that class went. oy. and my social psyc teacher kills me because hes an ass. think deeny for band with less personality. that does not bode well. my experimental psyc and senior sem classes are going to be challanges but in a good way. lots of work but i really feel like im learning a lot. i have 3 major presentations to do this semester each consisting of i think a half hour each so im not too sure how thats going to work. i kno i can talk for a half hour but the trick is keeping on topic for a half hour. we shall see.
kristen and i havent been getting tons of time together so its kinda sucking but at the same time i havent gotten tons of time to see anyone so i guess its just kinda life at this point. were stealing every minute we can find to be together so well get through one way or another. plus after the concert she is getting more and more into metallica so im givning her all the albums in order to listen to and experiance so it like listening to everything for the first time again. amazing. ok off to do work of some sort. away!

metallica!!

2009-02-01T06:13:00Z

dear lj, today metallica rocked me to my core. im am metal through and through. i thank the gods of metallica for the gift they gave me. most awesome concert ever. goodnight

final semester act 1

2009-01-22T07:07:32Z

first day of classes and all together it was a pretty mixed bag. started with me getting up at fucking noon because my alarm decided to not go off for me. joy. good thing class isnt till 2. yay for late classes. so yea senior semenar was cool even though we didnt really "do" a whole lot. the professor is super cool she is totally into the whole helping us learn and stuff. were going to talk a lot about careers and grad school and whatnot so thats going to be amazing for making me feel better about graduation. plus im going to be putting together a resume at some point so who knows maybe ill get a real job before never. there are only 12 people in the class so i think its going to be really good and interesting. as we went around the table giving basic who we are kinda stuff i mentioned i was the anime club president and EVERYONE KNEW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT!! usually when i mention anything about anime i get blank stares or giggles but people were like, "anime cool so what do you guys do mabye ill stop in" WTF?!?! freaking amazing!! so yea that was one of my yay moments of the day. also there is a girl in that class that looks so familiar its driving me crazy. i know i know her from somewhere but for some reason i cant figure it out. plus she knows me from somewhere too and she cant figure it out. talked with her all the way from class on east campus to her class and still couldnt figure it out. she seems really cool though she plays drums and used to be in a band but she wasent girly enough and they didnt want to play heavy music so she left. forgot her name but shes cool to talk to and laughed when i made a zombie joke so its a plus. i made a friend yay.
social psyc is going to kill me because the teacher is terrible and makes everything so freaking boring. plus he invented this genious way of giving tests called a monte carlo system. apparently on the days were supposed to have a quiz someone rolls a dice and if its an even number we dont have a quiz. WTF?!? so we could have either 2 quizzes since the first and last are in stone or we could have 6. W...T....F...so basically i can study for a quiz we dont have or feel lucky and not study and rely on the dice to save me. stupid stupid stupid. why do they let people like this man teach?

darkjedininja @ 2009-01-19T01:16:00

2009-01-19T06:18:03Z

dear lj, this was the most amazing weekend ever. even though it marks the end of my last winter break ever, spending it with kristen made it worth it in every way. a weekend that i wish never had to end. but the love from it will live on forever. goodnight

darkjedininja @ 2009-01-11T11:17:00

2009-01-11T16:21:40Z

ok so yesterday was totally screwed. work was a total clusterfuck tho in general it was fnny as hell at the same time. i walked in and it was a freaking mess so they were like we need you to close. pleaseplease pleeeeease. so im like fuuuuuck....fine....bastards. but then like an hour later...dead. im lookin at tumbleweeds blowing across the floor. crazy. so i got out at 6 like i was supposed to. yay. but instead of seeing poeple like we were supposed to i ended up going home since i was sure everyone had stayed home as well. the break is almost over and ive hng out with people like zero tmes which is really annoying. well whatever just hope i can get everyone before school starts again. just gotta play it by ear i guess. im off wed this week and working at 4:30 the other days so whenever people want to ge ttogether jus holla back. yo..

darkjedininja @ 2009-01-10T10:30:00

2009-01-10T15:34:05Z

yesterday was one of the greatest days even. kristen took off of work to come be with knowing i had nothing to do and we spent the whole day together. just hanging out, cuddling playing games. just being together. so amazing. i lvoe her so much its hard to believe. were going away next weekend for our 3 year even though it was like weeks ago. that going to be a great trip i cant wait. in other news my grades are in and i got an A in earth science and a B+ in everything else so i did very well. my cumulative GPA is 2.93 so im so close to my goal of over a 3.00 GPA. the guild on xbox live is my new obsession i live felicia day. go watch it. now.